Putting Unworthiness In Its Place

December 5, 2016

You are enough.

You are worthy.

You are enough.

You are worthy.

I forget my own value too often then not though I constantly chant these words to people around me. I forget to Whom I belong to. I forget that I am enough. I second guess myself all the time because of this. I doubt that I am enough for others. I am not defined by the words of discouragement. I am not defined by him or her. 

Silence the hurt that screams 'rejected'. Shout the whispers of 'loved' and 'beautiful'. 

You are enough. You are worthy.

We are so enriched in grace. His immeasurable, wonderful, undeserving grace.

This is me. This is no professional picture with a beautiful aesthetic. This subject has been on my heart for a while. My head is full of words to say yet I keep typing, deleting, re-typing. Trying to find a perfect image for the header of this post. I am such a perfectionist. I am guilty of putting myself up on a pedestal and throwing at myself words of shame of self-doubt. I am guilty of pulling myself a part -- picking at every little detail. I am the beholder of the stone at the stoning of myself. I am messy, awkward, crazy, weird. I have blemishes, scars, and fat. My perfectionist self wants to get everything in my life in order. Reject that. Please reject that. It is okay to be a little messy -- to be a lot of messy. It is okay to be splattered and matted. We are so loved. So loved by a Father who sees our hearts. He sees every crack, every crevice. He sees the flaws  that you put so much effort into hiding. 

There is something I have had to learn -- it's okay.

I had a really good dad. My dad always reminded me of John Walton or Charles Ingles or Danny Tanner. You get the picture -- the man who is an advocate for doing the right thing, for being kind to everyone, for sharing wisdom upon wisdom. He would always remind me of my beauty. It would be at random too. I remember His worn but comforting hands over mine. He would just call me a princess. He was a gentle dad who never held me to the world's standards. He was more concerned about making my heart beautiful than buying me make up to make my exterior beautiful. He taught me to fill myself with kindness, patience, selflessness. We have a heavenly Father who reminds us of our beauty. We have a wonderful God. I am full on smiling when I say this -- He adores us! He loves us. He accepts us. He knows we aren't perfect. In fact, He wants to use that. He wants to use the gold that fills our gold. That thing that shines despite the things that bury itself on top. There is nothing He loves more than our interior. He isn't like this world who judges us and puts us in categories. He isn't a label maker. He is our Perfect Creator. 

Enough. I am enough.

My Father creates in me fullness. It is well with my soul, because to Him, I am enough. Our inadequacy is what makes us adequate. Our brokenness is what makes us usable. Our imperfections are what makes us a perfect candidate to go and share how He makes us new every morning. He equips us as we are called to serve -- called to love. You are enough. You don't have to be fearless. Let grace carry you. 

Psalms 14:73 // "He heals the wounds of every shattered heart."

Every stone that has been throne at you can be healed. You don't just have to stick a temporary band-aid on it. He is called Healer, Wonderful Counselor. He doesn't want us cutting our hands while we try to pick up the broken pieces. He wants us to lay it all down for Him. 

When we know God and seek Him daily, Those thoughts of worthlessness flee. Satan's megaphone is smashed with His truth. When we fill our minds with scripture, we push out every thing else. Hey, Satan, you can't beat us down when we have God on our side. 

So let's actually apply this to our life: 

- Dig into the Word. Yes, pick up that Bible that is probably less that five feet from you. Remember that you have been set free. Set a part. We are no longer slaves. Don't enslave yourself with Satan's  lies. Daily.  There was blood shed for our freedom. We are free, because our selfless God sent down His only Son to bear our burdens. Isn't your soul tired from being battered and beaten? Isn't heavy? It's being fed the wrong thing. Stop spoon feeding yourself with discouragement and with lies. Fill yourself up with the Truth that proclaims that you are a child of God -- a daughter of the King, a son of the Mighty. 

Galatians 5:1 // "It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery." 

- Delight in Him. He delights in us. What does it mean to delight in something? It means to find joy in it. See light. We are called to delight in the Lord for He is good. He is so good! When we seek Him, joy radiates from within. God rejoices when our hearts sing His name. He saves us from heaviness and worthlessness. 

Psalms 18:19 // "He rescued me, because He delighted in me."

- Remember to Whom you belong. Embrace that. We are created by a perfect Maker, a talented Molder, an artistic Painter, We are desired. Darling, we are wanted. Refuse to let the world corrupt you.

Psalms 100:3 // "Know that the Lord, He is God; it is He who has made us, and not we ourselves. We are His people and the sheep of His pasture.

- Pray fearfully. Pray daily. Lift up your voice and hands. It's His grace in our lungs that gives us breath. Breath He has given us to praise and glorify Him. Breath that is not meant for our own constriction.  

- Love radically. When we take time to serve others, we find in ourselves purpose. We are revealed the purpose that God has set in us. We aren't just roamers of this earth. We are the salt and the light. We are the city set on a hill (Matthew 5:14). 

We have a good Father who pursues us even when we feel unworthy. He is relentless. There will be victory over your feeling of inadequacy, depression, shame, guilt. Let God cultivate a soul that dances freely and a heart that hugs. His love surrounds us even when our thoughts weigh us down. Open up your ears to His sweet voice. Stomp out unworthiness. You are enough. You are His.

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